I came to an epiphany this weekend about family vs. the rest of the people that you know. Why are we obligated to like them no matter what? Even when the repeated make the same mistakes. I mean I generally don't like some members of my family, I mean if they were related to me I wouldn't even speak to them much less love them. WTF? Is it because we share the same DNA that we are permanently joined together. I really don't think I am like any of my family members at all. I have different views and values then they do. I can not believe that we grew up in the same house with the same parents....

Is this what marriage and children has in store for me. I raise them and they don't like me or each other? What is the purpose for marriage? Can you profess your love and loyalty to someone without having to have a Legal doctrine stating it? I can understand that have a "stable" envirnoment for raising a family is important.. but from what I can tell most marriages are NOT stable at all.

I don't think have even one friend that is "happily" married. I think everyone is getting married because they realize that divorce isn't so difficult or so frowned upon like it used to be. Maybe?
I don't know, all I know is that I am NOT married, I have no plans to be married, and getting married will not make my life any better or magically make me a complete person.

With all the people on this planet, I don't see why I should have children, maybe I should just adopt a child in need of a home. but how can I adopt and be single? and will this child one day hate me because I am NOT the biological parent?

Its all a giant mystery. With age comes Wisdom right? Well I just added another year to my total but I still don't have any usefull answers... I am just as screwed up as I was 10 years ago.