WTF
Current mood: depressed

I don't even know where to start.. Everything is soo Fucked up.
How could I have been so wrong...
For so long all I wanted to do was spend my life with him...
He was my world, my everything..
The moment I met him I knew something there was something special about him, something I wanted to spend my life figuring out, learning about.
That was almost 7 year ago. I thought we'd been throught so much together that nothing would break us up.. NOTHING... but no relationship will work with only one person...

Everything was all a lie...I believed he loved me as much as I loved him.
I remember the moment that I fell in love with him. I wasn't even dating him.. He was with some else.. I met her later that same night.. I guess that I never realized there would alway be someone else...

I mean at some point I figured its been years how could he possibly have time for anyone else.. I tusted our love... I figured I loved him so much and we were happy... I figured wrong...

Whether he phsyically cheated or not.. I will NEVER know... but there were always other women on his brain, possibly in his heart.. Most of them I found out about.. I bet there are others I didn't..

There was this entirely second secret life that I wasn't apart of.... Its hard to imagine anyone would choose to live like that... i have trouble keeping track of myself let alone trying to conceal people and relationships...

I kidded myself thinking that he loved me and would always come back to me... WTF was I thinking... no one deserves that kind of treatment...

I understand that relationthips take work.. but none should have been as hard as this was...

I finally came up with the strength that I never thought I would have.. I finally ended things for good.. I got some closure...I thought that would help... Its so cliche and crap... Doesn't make me feel any better.. I just cut the string I had been dangled on for years...

As I left his house.. giving him his things, and taking mine.. who should I see at the corner of his block... the same woman he was seeing when I realized I was in love with him...

What are chances... maybe too coincidental... maybe he was meeting her later that evening.. maybe he had been still seeing her all this time... It would not surprise me.. I dont' think anything would anymore...

I can't even think straight right now... sure I lost a love.. one that I thought was forever, but i also lost my best friend...

He was the one person in this world that knew me better than I know myself.. he knew my issues, my problems, and he still loved me..

Is it really true, are men incapable of loyalty and fidelity???